i really dont like the trend of radio stations playing old music during lunch time. Who wants to listen to that crap on their lunch hour? Not me.(ooh but this is a good song by Bush, Letting the Cables Sleep)
my surgery for endometriosis is this Thursday, in Maine, so I wont be on here for a few days. Not that ya'll arent used to that. Jill & I are staying with her cousins who live about half an hour from the medical center. Id like to see my aunt & uncle on our way back, but we'll see. We are leaving tonight and returning Sunday. Then Im off til July 20th. Fun.
I think you'll see me a bit more during this recovery.
Thanks to Chris K. for coming over and taking care of our pets! :) Repayment for us taking care of theirs. lol. Weird how meg comes back the same day we do. The wolf rescue will miss her, as we have!On that note, the other day I dreamt that Meg and chris moved out there and worked on the rescue for the rest of their lives. It COULD happen!
went to see my pcp yesterday as I felt icky. turns out i have respiratory tonsillitis. fun fun. thanks to z pack I'm feeling ok and the surgeon said I should be fine for surgery. My pcp didnt think so but I dont like her. I have a re-check july 14th and then I think I'll change drs. She was asking me all these q's about everything, like my depression (cuz she asked about my meds) and asked me where the depression came from. None of her business! I told her "its not from what you think". Drs always jump to conclusions about depression as a youth, things like abuse, etc. She asked me about this surgery and told me "if there's a doctor claiming to be an endo specialist, he's lying to you. There aren't any specialists for endometriosis." Like YOU would know you fat, ugly cow! Ugh.
ok, gonna go. Cross posted on endo grp.
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tired - Music:counting crows-mr jones
i know i dont post anymore, but hi! Just to let you all know out that in LJ land, Im having surgery for my endometriosis on June 25th in Maine w/ dr R. excision via lap, a hysteroscopy, and an appendectomy. fun times! I will be taking a month off work to recoop and relax cuz my job is so f'ing stressful. I'll try to update more often now that life has settled down a bit.
also, Ive applied for masters degrees @
1. Univ of CO, denver, masters of public affairs in domestic violence
http://www.cudenver.edu/Academics/Colleg
2. wheelock college, MSW
Jill & I are great, happily living together w/ our doggies and other assorted animals.
gotta go cuz dinner is ready
love love
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content - Music:Rock Band
No one showed for my party, 2 ppl are off the hook (alex cuz shes sick and shabana cuz i told her not to come; i was depressed @ that pt and just hanging w jill). Jill made dinner (cuz shes awesome), steak, broc & chz, and rice pilaf that took eons to cook, lol. She also made me carrot cake. :D
Ive decided to find a rheumatologst and see if I have fibromyalgia. chronic pain, chronic fatigue, etc. Thank you Endo Sisters (from ERC and LJ group) for all your help on that. I'll let ya'll know about that (see? I DID grow up in OH, lol).
I decided to withdraw from the grad class cuz i cant afford it. No fin aid for non-matriculating students, and I cant get credit-based loans. I have to just suck up and apply like everyone else. Here goes nothing, as my father used to say.
Im grateful to everyone who remembered my bday (from facebook or posts or just memory, lol). Thanks folks! :)
oh, I decided to attempt to make Moose a dog bed. Gonna get some fleece and copy a pattern i found onlne. I LOVE DIY. ALSO i need to MAKE myself write a daily journal of food/pain/meds. I just have to, No excuses dammit! Jill has agreed to help me. She is THE BEST ever. I swear. Gonna keep her around...
- Location:RI
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content - Music:taylor swift-tim mcgraw
woo 26!
Im just irked cuz i remember my adopted moms bday EVERY YEAR and EVERY YEAR she forgets mine....
well, been on my period for a month now. the ob-gyn (who is yet another in a LONG list of idiots) isn't a lot of help. i went in the other day to see her after a few months, and her nurse asked me what endo is. Seriously. F;ing idiot. So i tell her. Dr comes in, i tell her about it all. she told me that the month-long pd is due to recently switching to Seasonale. She said that quite often women on seasonale have break through bleeding, especially since it makes our bodies wait for 12 weeks, and often the body cant handle it, so breakthrough bleeding occurs. SO we decided to switch my bcp to Aviane which is similar but different....no fucking idea. Lol. I dont get stuff like that. So,I'll start Aviane on sunday. This way Im gonna take it continuously for 6 weeks then have my pd. we'll see.
Also, she gave me ibu. 800 cuz, of course, drs dont like to use vicodin. I have an pelvic ultrasound on Friday, but if Im still on my pd, I'll have to reschedule it. Ultras. dont really do a lot of good for endo but then she can see how my ovaries are and MAYBE see some endometria (the endo cysts themselves). I had to re-request my post-op notes from the diag. lap. back in OH in 06 for my ob. Hopefully that will help. She had also suggested Lupron and I wanted to find her m.d. certification and shove it down her throat. Id go see someone else but Im SICK of switching drs and going through all the bs ALL OVER AGAIN. So I'll stay the hell away from Lupron and fight her all the way on that one. She doesnt think a lap. will help but then she prob doesnt know that excision can be SO helpful and its one of the ONLY things that can help. AND shes of the old school thought that prescribes LUPRON! Sigh....
Lets see...went to the dentist today, post-wisdom teeth and a cleaning. The hygenist was impressed with my mouth and the lack of LOTS of plaque, which is GREAT news to hear. I have NEVER, in my entire life, had a dentist tell me that my mouth looks good. lol. I do have 3 cavities to work on, once a month for the next 3 months,woo. I have to have a crown eventually, late next yr or 2010. The one bad thing is that one of my teeth has a recession going on and i need to be more careful with it. She gave me sensodyne and told me to put some just on that tooth every night for at least a week. She suggested I switch to an electric toothbrush b/c theyre softer and shut off if you push too hard. so maybe post-xmas I;ll do that.
Did a lot of xmas shopping this month and actually got a lot of presents for ppl. Not expecting much myself but that is okay. I dont need things, just love :)
Things with Jill are amazingly fucking awesome.
She is SO great. I am definitely all about her. 
her friends are great, her fam is cool (mostly...you knowm all fams have issues). Her paternal grandpa is sick and that sucks, so Im praying for a speedy recovery for him. But yah...shes amazing. Far better than anyone else Ive dated (no offense to my ex's.) She really is fucking amazing. Smart, funny as hell. she cares about me! She takes care of me! le sigh. Happiness abound.- Mood:
content
I wanted to draw your attention to this important petition that I recently signed:
"pagan holiday recognition"
http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/paga
This is to have the US recognize pagan holidays as holiday!!!!
I really think this is an important cause, and I'd like to encourage you to add your signature, too. It's free and takes less than a minute of your time.
Thanks!
- Location:RI
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content - Music:sarah mclachlan-time
State Supreme Court Will Review Ban on Same-Sex Marriage in 2009
Parents, Families and Friends of Lesbians and Gays (PFLAG) today applauded a decision by the California Supreme Court to review Proposition 8, a ban on same-sex marriage that was approved by voters on November 4. In an order issued on Wednesday, the court agreed to hear a challenge to the proposition as early as March 2009. In the interim, the court has declined to issue a stay. The court challenge was brought by a coalition of organizations working in California, including The American Civil Liberties Union, Lambda Legal and The National Center for Lesbian Rights. The City of San Francisco is also challenging the measure.
“The California Supreme Court has taken a second, bold stand for families in the state and we welcome its decision to review Proposition 8,” said Jody M. Huckaby, executive director of PFLAG. “The proper checks and balances role of the judiciary is to ensure that majority rule doesn't undermine minority rights, and the court has an important role to play in that process. Loving couples and their families should be protected, not neglected, under the law. Proposition 8 singled out a specific community of Californians for discrimination and created a category of ‘separate and unequal’ for same-sex couples. That is wrong, and the measure should be struck down by the court.”
In May, California became the second state, following Massachusetts, to grant same-sex couples the right to marry. According to the Williams Institute at the University of California-Los Angeles, more than 102,000 same-sex couples live in the state, and more than 50,000 planned to wed in the next three years. More than 18,000 couples have already been married in the state. Following California’s decision, Connecticut has also recognized marriage equality for lesbian and gay couples.
“The California Supreme Court has blessed our family,” PFLAG parents Ken and Molleen Matsumura of Oakland, California, wrote shortly after the May decision. “All loving parents hope to see their child secure in the love of their chosen partner in life, if the child chooses to marry. That means someone who can visit her in the hospital, tell the doctors what to do if she can't speak for herself, share their earnings and insurance and support each other in building financial security [and] share a name if they so choose.”
The court has invalidated three similar ballot measures in the past. California Attorney General Jerry Brown encouraged the court to review Proposition 8, and Governor Arnold Schwarzenegger expressed strong support for the original ruling, recognizing full marriage rights for all couples.
“As the court considers the future of Proposition 8, all of us must continue to educate Americans from every state about the legal jeopardy our families face because of measures like these,” said Huckaby. “Our opponents are already targeting other parts of the country for campaigns similar to the one in California. From Massachusetts to California, and right through America’s heartland, there will be a coordinated effort to roll back equality. PFLAG families have a unique role to play in combating those efforts, alongside allies such as those who brought this challenge in California, and we will continue to do so.”
On the 2 ballot issues:
-The Nature Conservatory is PRO wth the Open space & recreation development bond (issue #2)
http://www.nature.org/
-Transportation Bond (Issue 1)
http://ballotpedia.org/wiki/
http://www.projo.com/news/
Human Rights Campaign on RI Voting http://www.hrc.org/equality08/
And the rest, http://www.thegreenpapers.com/
AND, if you have NO idea where you are supposed to go come Nov 4th, CLICK HERE! http://www.sec.state.ri.us/
Happy VOting! :)
Kate/kat
THis one is very close to my heart as I have endo and so do 2 of my sisters, plus a really good friend of mine. Please sign it and pass it on. :)
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apathetic
The surgery went well. Im exhausted and sore. I cant open my mouth much farther than to put a small spoonful of something liquidy in it. I sleep on and off for hours. Vicoden every 4 hours and antibiotics every 7. fun times.
Obama will make it better, somehow!!
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cold
Inside mine like diamonds
Lace so fine ballerina
Cupcake and my earthquake
Wakes me from a sleep that
Never comes are you breathing
Waiting for me
I didn't really want you
But I want you now
Was so foolish of me
To feel you tumbling down
Into that empty room
The lights went out
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
I didn't think I needed you
But I need you now
Was so empty in me
To feel you crashing down
Into the empty world
The music stops
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
You will always be mine
The room spins
Pull you from me
My body burns
Tell me of the rainbows
The colors that the rain throws
Ballerina dance softly
She knows when to come only
When she's called I’m slowly coming to
I didn't really want you
But I need you
Was so foolish of me
To feel you tumbling down
Into that empty room
The lights went out
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
I didn't think I wanted you
But I want you now
Was so empty in me
To feel you crashing down
Into the empty world
The music stops
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
You will always be mine
So, so sorry
Just come back for me now
So, so sorry
Just come back to me now
oh soon
I didn't think I wanted you
But I want you now
It was so foolish of me
To feel you tumbling down
Into that empty room
The lights went out
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
I didn't think I needed you
But I need you now
Was so empty in me
To feel you tumbling down
Into the empty world
The lights went out
I want to rescue want to scream out loud
That you will always be mine"
ballerina by Leona Naess. This song is at the end of episode 6 of Weeds, season 1, where Nancy is watching a vid of her and her (deceased) hubby making love. Its so beautiful...and so sad
you can hear it on the album Leona Naess, or if you go to her myspace and listen to the cd...
- Location:RI
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lonely - Music:leona naess-ballerina
Positive feelings are beginning to bubble up from within you today, yet you might not understand why because there are serious questions that still need answers. It's not that you are pessimistic, but since you aren't missing much now, you see problems that others may overlook. Remember, you can still be successful even if a few details are left hanging, so let go of your concerns and allow your confidence to build.
well, I definitely DO have positive feelings, and lots of serious qs that are unanswered....dreamt about going to Australia on some tour thing, leaving cuz it was terrible, and being stuck in Australia waiting for a boat back to the US. weird shit.
- Location:RI
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okay - Music:kasabian


